Monday, April 20, 2009

Just feeling yuckie

I dont know if the way i have been feeling lately is because of my pregnancy or just because I was not created to be a stay at home Wife. Lately I have been feeling very trapped by my circumstances, not that they are necessarily bad I just feel trapped. I have really only been feeling this way since I went to being only a full time stay at home wife/ mom before I was in school and while it was challenging to balance everything I was at least content. I thought that maybe I could put My twins in preschool a couple days a week only to be discouraged at the cost of putting two toddlers in preschool. So now im just trying to figure out how to manage my discontent and not let it effect my family, after all none of them have done anything wrong. Now that I am actually thinking about it im sure it is all the pregnancy hormones. It probably doesnt help that I get weekly progesterone injections, which is a mood effecting hormone. What a trip being pregnant is... You have so much happiness yet your body can turn on you and make you equally miserable. Well at least there are only a couple of months left to go. I find myself getting more and more excited as it gets closer to meeting our little Paige Grace. Sigh I hope my sanity will hold that long.lol