Well it looks like its been almost 6 months since i last posted a blog, i hate when i do that.lol
Well i just got back for am 4 day trip to Texas where my twins got to see their Nana and Papa and we celebrated their 4th birthday on Tuesday. The girls had such a great time and everytime i go to Texas it makes me long to move back there. My hubby would have no problems with it if he could find a good enough job there. But it just hasnt come to pass. sigh i feel like i will be stuck in Az forever..yuck! But back to my girls i just cant believe how fast 4 years has gone by it is so true what they say about time going by faster when you get older cause my life just seems to be flying by. And my littlest on Paige is now 5 months old thats just crazy! Anyway now that their birthday is done its time to finish up christmas stuff. They are going to go see santa clause (grandpa) this weekend should be fun! ill try to keep this a bit more on track from now on but im sure ill get busy and forget again..lol its a vicious cycle.
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Ode to my uterus
Well in my last post, on june 30th i was counting down the weeks till i got to meet my sweet little baby, little did I know that the very next night would bring the worst pain and biggest scare of my life.
On July 1st about 11pm I started having some strange pains low in my uterus. the pains werent like regular contractions so I didnt think much of it since it was a bad pain, just annoying. As the night went on these annoying pains stated getting stronger and I began to worry since I knew what I was feeling was not normal. At 3 in the morning on July 2nd, I woke my husband up (at least one of us could sleep) and told him something was not right that I was going to take a warm shower to see if it would relax my muscles (it didnt). When I got out the pains were bad enough that I called the on call nurse to ask her what I should do, she advised that I go to the hospital right away. As soon as I hung up the phone I felt the worst pain of my life. It felt like someone took a hot poker and shoved it straight up through my uterus, needless to say it doubled me over and put me in tears faster then one could blink. At this point Cody was already getting dressed and trying to help me as best he could. We managed to get me dressed and down the stairs and into the car with these excruciating pains and spend to the hospital(slowing down only at those stupid photo radars).
Once we got to the hospital they immediately hooked me up to a baby monitor to find the babys heart beat. the nurse must have covered my whole belly several time and heard nothing, then started asking me when the last time i felt the baby move was of course scaring me shitless at this point in addition to the continuing pain I was experiencing. I had felt the baby move at ten that night and it was now 4:30am. At last they found a very faint heartbeat of only 60 which as you know is extremely low. Next thing I knew I was in the OR being prepped for an emergency c-section scared to death I was losing my baby and begging for pain medicine it hurt so bad.
When I finally came too my husband was there to tell me that they got to the baby just in time and that she was doing ok. Then the nurse came in to tell me that since I had lost so much blood they might have to give me a transfusion, but that they were going to wait to see if my body would pick up the pace, luckily it did and I narrowly escaped a transfusion. Then a doctor came in to tell me what had happened and I was shocked. Apparently my uterus ripped open and spilled everything the baby, amniotic fluid, placenta into my abdomen, and that this sort of occurrence almost always results in the lost of the baby and mother. Talk about a miracle that my baby and I are still here. I asked how it could rip open like that and he said that my previous c-section scars had not healed strong and gave way. Know wonder it hurt so bad it was my uterus ripping open.
Anyway the baby and I are doing well but I am no longer able to have children, which makes me very sad because we were going to try for one more (we really wanted a son) and then tie my tubes. While I am sad I am very grateful to have Paige and myself safe and healthy. My poor uterus :(
On July 1st about 11pm I started having some strange pains low in my uterus. the pains werent like regular contractions so I didnt think much of it since it was a bad pain, just annoying. As the night went on these annoying pains stated getting stronger and I began to worry since I knew what I was feeling was not normal. At 3 in the morning on July 2nd, I woke my husband up (at least one of us could sleep) and told him something was not right that I was going to take a warm shower to see if it would relax my muscles (it didnt). When I got out the pains were bad enough that I called the on call nurse to ask her what I should do, she advised that I go to the hospital right away. As soon as I hung up the phone I felt the worst pain of my life. It felt like someone took a hot poker and shoved it straight up through my uterus, needless to say it doubled me over and put me in tears faster then one could blink. At this point Cody was already getting dressed and trying to help me as best he could. We managed to get me dressed and down the stairs and into the car with these excruciating pains and spend to the hospital(slowing down only at those stupid photo radars).
Once we got to the hospital they immediately hooked me up to a baby monitor to find the babys heart beat. the nurse must have covered my whole belly several time and heard nothing, then started asking me when the last time i felt the baby move was of course scaring me shitless at this point in addition to the continuing pain I was experiencing. I had felt the baby move at ten that night and it was now 4:30am. At last they found a very faint heartbeat of only 60 which as you know is extremely low. Next thing I knew I was in the OR being prepped for an emergency c-section scared to death I was losing my baby and begging for pain medicine it hurt so bad.
When I finally came too my husband was there to tell me that they got to the baby just in time and that she was doing ok. Then the nurse came in to tell me that since I had lost so much blood they might have to give me a transfusion, but that they were going to wait to see if my body would pick up the pace, luckily it did and I narrowly escaped a transfusion. Then a doctor came in to tell me what had happened and I was shocked. Apparently my uterus ripped open and spilled everything the baby, amniotic fluid, placenta into my abdomen, and that this sort of occurrence almost always results in the lost of the baby and mother. Talk about a miracle that my baby and I are still here. I asked how it could rip open like that and he said that my previous c-section scars had not healed strong and gave way. Know wonder it hurt so bad it was my uterus ripping open.
Anyway the baby and I are doing well but I am no longer able to have children, which makes me very sad because we were going to try for one more (we really wanted a son) and then tie my tubes. While I am sad I am very grateful to have Paige and myself safe and healthy. My poor uterus :(
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Update
Well its now 4 weeks till my scheduled c-section and I am so excited to meet my little one. Im even more excited about getting my body back and not having to suffer so much in this Arizona heat. I think if that woman who has like 20 kids had to go through one pregnancy in this Arizona heat she would have thought twice before popping out so many kids. Theres an idea use arizona summer heat as birth control.lol Only down side about having this c section is that they want to do an amneocentesis (i am sure I completely butchered the spelling) a couple days before. you know I cant say i am completely comfortable with the idea of having a huge needle stuck into my belly just centimeters from my baby sucking out the surrounding fluid, but the docs seem to think it best to be done. pfft... stupid doctors with their fancy degrees.lol
Along with the excitement of the new baby coming soon, my family and i are also in the process of getting ready to move. Whats that you say? We are crazy for moving in this heat so close to the time of delivery... Well then my friend i would have to say...I completely agree, too bad we cant do much about it, thanks to my oh so wonderful friends here at our complex, who sent us notices saying our lease was up in june but when we went to put in our notice said oops you have to be here till July sorry....Jerks!!!
On the plus side the twins are very excited about moving and about being big sisters. They talk to the baby in my belly and give her kisses. And always try to feel her kicking. So cute Well i guess thats it for now ill try to keep more on top of my blog from now on but with all the craziness i can see it being a challenge.
Along with the excitement of the new baby coming soon, my family and i are also in the process of getting ready to move. Whats that you say? We are crazy for moving in this heat so close to the time of delivery... Well then my friend i would have to say...I completely agree, too bad we cant do much about it, thanks to my oh so wonderful friends here at our complex, who sent us notices saying our lease was up in june but when we went to put in our notice said oops you have to be here till July sorry....Jerks!!!
On the plus side the twins are very excited about moving and about being big sisters. They talk to the baby in my belly and give her kisses. And always try to feel her kicking. So cute Well i guess thats it for now ill try to keep more on top of my blog from now on but with all the craziness i can see it being a challenge.
Monday, April 20, 2009
Just feeling yuckie
I dont know if the way i have been feeling lately is because of my pregnancy or just because I was not created to be a stay at home Wife. Lately I have been feeling very trapped by my circumstances, not that they are necessarily bad I just feel trapped. I have really only been feeling this way since I went to being only a full time stay at home wife/ mom before I was in school and while it was challenging to balance everything I was at least content. I thought that maybe I could put My twins in preschool a couple days a week only to be discouraged at the cost of putting two toddlers in preschool. So now im just trying to figure out how to manage my discontent and not let it effect my family, after all none of them have done anything wrong. Now that I am actually thinking about it im sure it is all the pregnancy hormones. It probably doesnt help that I get weekly progesterone injections, which is a mood effecting hormone. What a trip being pregnant is... You have so much happiness yet your body can turn on you and make you equally miserable. Well at least there are only a couple of months left to go. I find myself getting more and more excited as it gets closer to meeting our little Paige Grace. Sigh I hope my sanity will hold that long.lol
Monday, March 2, 2009
The survey says...
So i went to the Dr. today for my 16 week check up. When i got into the room I was informed that today they would be measuring my cervix to make sure it was in good standing. So While they measured my cervix which was very uncomfortable since they have to use the vaginal probe, I just kept thinking about finding out the sex of my little one. When the lady was about done I asked if we were going to look more at the baby and to my dismay she tells me no not this time. I was so bummed, I told her i was hoping to find out the sex today if the baby would let us but i guess id have to wait. Or so I thought. As the ultra sound tech was about to walk out of the room she stopped looked at me and asked me if I wanted to try to see the sex. I got so excited im sure she thought I was a dork. So she switched to the belly ultrasound scanner thing and to my pleasure the little one was in the perfect position for us to see that it was a Little Girl. While I was really really hoping for a boy I am still excited about the baby. Her heart rate is in the 170's and going strong. While that part of the appt was exciting the rest of it really wasnt very encouraging. When the DR. came in I was informed that I have placenta previa. Which in most women is not a problem unless they have had a previous C-section, which I have. The placenta is only slightly over my cervix and there is a very good chance that it will move in the next couple of weeks. However, if it does not i was informed that there would most likely be a 90% chance that when they take the baby, they would also take my uterus with it. I was told this was because the placenta grows into the scar tissue and when it does that they can not detach it. So they will be watching me closely the next couple of weeks to see what the placenta does. sigh
Friday, February 27, 2009
Almost 16 weeks
Today I am 15 weeks and 4 days and I have my 16 week check up on Monday, which im so excited for. I feel like my pregnancy is going so slow and I am really hoping that they will be able to tell the sex of the baby when i get my ultrasound. i know that I will be really bummed if we cant find out, which I know is a very real possibility. But I have high hopes.. My twins are getting more and more excited about this baby as well. it is so cute to see them try to kiss the baby in my belly. The funniest part is i really dont have a belly yet, but they know that there is a baby in Mommy's belly and they tell me they love him/her all the time. So cute I love my kids. I hope the weekend goes fast...
Saturday, February 14, 2009
25 Random things about me
1. I happen to think that there is always too much carbonation in bottled soda, so i have a habit of shaking the bottle repeatedly and releasing the excess carbonation until it is to my liking.(yes my family and friends make fun of me for this)
2. I think Mike Meyers is probably my favorite actor everything that man does makes me laugh. On the opposite side I think Matthew Broderick is one of the worst actors i have ever seen... after all you cant spell broderick without ICK!
3. I have a small black dog that is very cute but i have become convinced that deep down inside her somewhere she is really a blonde. If you saw her im sure you would agree.
4. With my current pregnancy I have found that potato chips are like crack and that I might even trade my husband to get some.
5. I like many of my friends have a tendency to use movie quotes in my everyday conversation while I find it hilarious the most common reaction i get is the look of confusion
6. I think that we as a nation need to learn to be more self reliant. I have a vegetable garden..i may not be able to make potato chips but if shit ever hit the fan i could sure as heck grow my own potatoes.
7. Summer in Arizona is by far the worst in my opinion if you manage to actually make it to your car without collapsing form heat stroke you have the pleasure of looking forward to burning yourself on everything in your car once you get there. the seat, the steering wheel, the seat belt, the window, the stick shift and the list goes on...
8. I have unfortunately had the pleasure of having my butt cheek groped by a 70 year old man in a wheel chair when i worked in a nursing home ( you might think they dont know whats going on, but they do)
9. When I was little every time I got a tootsie roll pop I would try to count how many licks it would take to get to the center, i never did figure it out..sigh
10. I would really like to know why yawns are contagious...really wish i knew
11. The two most overused words in my vocabulary are: dude and seriously... its sad but they can mean so many different things it all depends on how you say them.
12. pickles are also pregnancy crack.. I should probably make a list for my husband titled " potential things you could be traded for".
13. once when i was little I dared my brother to stick his tongue on the metal part of the freezer door, which he did ,and his tongue stuck to it. he then ripped it off and proceeded to burn it with hot coco after which i laughed so hard i cried. The worse part it was my older brother.
14. I always think about what i would do if I won the lottery, the only problem is i dont play so why do I think about what I would do if i won... hmm i dont know just something to think about I guess
15. My career goal in life is to become a nurse, and I am very close to becoming that, I have finished all my pre reqs and co reqs now im just waiting for a spot to open up in nursing school.
16. I think all those jokes about Chuck Norris are hilarious.. i wonder how all that got started
17. I wish our government wasnt so corrupt and im really worried about the future of our country.
18. I have little to no patience for stupid people, i really wish they came with warnings so you knew what you were about to get into.
19. I love my family they are good people
20. When i was little I was afraid of the McDonalds moon man. You know the guy with the half a moon for a head. Im glad they took him away.
21. im not a hippie or anything, but I really think that there needs to be more effort made to save the trees and fix the environment.
22. I want to travel the world when i retire, maybe even a little sooner when my kids get a little older.
23. I play WOW not very often but I do play.
24. Once when i was about ten we went to feed the ducks at the park and I had this great idea that I could throw it much further if I stood on the big boulder the was at the edge of the lake. So I got up there and threw the popcorn as hard as i could, to my dismay I lost my footing and went with the popcorn. I was so grossed out I was sure that I was going to be contaminated by duck poop.
25. I love cereal. all kinds, I can eat cereal for dinner or lunch there are so many different kinds its great i recommend it
2. I think Mike Meyers is probably my favorite actor everything that man does makes me laugh. On the opposite side I think Matthew Broderick is one of the worst actors i have ever seen... after all you cant spell broderick without ICK!
3. I have a small black dog that is very cute but i have become convinced that deep down inside her somewhere she is really a blonde. If you saw her im sure you would agree.
4. With my current pregnancy I have found that potato chips are like crack and that I might even trade my husband to get some.
5. I like many of my friends have a tendency to use movie quotes in my everyday conversation while I find it hilarious the most common reaction i get is the look of confusion
6. I think that we as a nation need to learn to be more self reliant. I have a vegetable garden..i may not be able to make potato chips but if shit ever hit the fan i could sure as heck grow my own potatoes.
7. Summer in Arizona is by far the worst in my opinion if you manage to actually make it to your car without collapsing form heat stroke you have the pleasure of looking forward to burning yourself on everything in your car once you get there. the seat, the steering wheel, the seat belt, the window, the stick shift and the list goes on...
8. I have unfortunately had the pleasure of having my butt cheek groped by a 70 year old man in a wheel chair when i worked in a nursing home ( you might think they dont know whats going on, but they do)
9. When I was little every time I got a tootsie roll pop I would try to count how many licks it would take to get to the center, i never did figure it out..sigh
10. I would really like to know why yawns are contagious...really wish i knew
11. The two most overused words in my vocabulary are: dude and seriously... its sad but they can mean so many different things it all depends on how you say them.
12. pickles are also pregnancy crack.. I should probably make a list for my husband titled " potential things you could be traded for".
13. once when i was little I dared my brother to stick his tongue on the metal part of the freezer door, which he did ,and his tongue stuck to it. he then ripped it off and proceeded to burn it with hot coco after which i laughed so hard i cried. The worse part it was my older brother.
14. I always think about what i would do if I won the lottery, the only problem is i dont play so why do I think about what I would do if i won... hmm i dont know just something to think about I guess
15. My career goal in life is to become a nurse, and I am very close to becoming that, I have finished all my pre reqs and co reqs now im just waiting for a spot to open up in nursing school.
16. I think all those jokes about Chuck Norris are hilarious.. i wonder how all that got started
17. I wish our government wasnt so corrupt and im really worried about the future of our country.
18. I have little to no patience for stupid people, i really wish they came with warnings so you knew what you were about to get into.
19. I love my family they are good people
20. When i was little I was afraid of the McDonalds moon man. You know the guy with the half a moon for a head. Im glad they took him away.
21. im not a hippie or anything, but I really think that there needs to be more effort made to save the trees and fix the environment.
22. I want to travel the world when i retire, maybe even a little sooner when my kids get a little older.
23. I play WOW not very often but I do play.
24. Once when i was about ten we went to feed the ducks at the park and I had this great idea that I could throw it much further if I stood on the big boulder the was at the edge of the lake. So I got up there and threw the popcorn as hard as i could, to my dismay I lost my footing and went with the popcorn. I was so grossed out I was sure that I was going to be contaminated by duck poop.
25. I love cereal. all kinds, I can eat cereal for dinner or lunch there are so many different kinds its great i recommend it
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